domo!

we had a wonderful activity this afternoon. really, i'm flattered, thank you soo much for saying those words to me, i don't hear them to people i'm with everyday. i felt like my tears would fall. i just want to say that, i love you even though we're not that close, thank you for saying like, i'm a sister,like i can understand and help someone, like i'll just be here if anybody needs help, everything i guess i wanted to hear. oh, i really don't know what to say anymore, i'm so thankful that i met you, you made me smile! 

i'm thankful that i was given a chance to speak about what i understand about . . . u know, even though i can't explain it well, i can feel that somehow, in my own simple words, they know what's behind it. guys, i love you so much, you know who you are.

I WANT TO HEAR THOSE WORDS AGAIN. and for that, again, thank you! :D

good morning!
what a wonderful day. haha,, already wonderful?? sure..
ooh, i found out last night that that novel is a series, i didn't expect it. i almost panicked. well,as usual, i want them all. but where would i find them? booksale?? time's ticking, well, i want them now, i don't want to wait, but i already read their first chapters, the three of them, haha. brrr,
and by the way, i thought that Sidney Sheldon is a girl, but really, he's a boy! what?! but i asked father and brother that question also, and father told me that he's a boy. pfft, really???!! hahaha
ooh,, the both them really annoys me!! what cha say?? really, do the both of you own him??!! ah!! i don't want to talk about it!! grr..
LOL,, byebye! domo!! :D

ha!!! the voice!! really beautiful.. oh God,. i want to see him!!! :D

what am i gonna do with my life?? ahaha :D "if i don't buy a book, then who will?" oh, i want to write it on my wall, large and clear so that when they enter my room,, ta-da!!! purrfect,, hahaha :D i have nothing to do.. i'm bored to death,, i want to read but i don't understand a thing.. ha! pfft
I WANT TO DISAPPEAR TO OBLIVION!!!

Third entry

Already my third entry!!

Hello! How are you? Me, I’m fine, thank you.

Today is the 30^th of December; it’s the day of my cousin. Ha! Even though we aren’t going to the city, our other two friends are still coming and by the way, I’m staying here. The day before yesterday, I’m in my aunt’s home, but last night, I’m in my cousin’s.

Our usual hobby as always when I’m here is to sleep late. We watched movies last night, or should I say that I watched movies last night because my cousin is busy texting. Why, I’m also asking her to keep my ‘brother’ busy because I’m doing something. And so, she did. Ha! I’m asking him to come here but he told me that he’s shy. Oh, c’mon, boys don’t get shy. Haha

Oh yes, we’re celebrating New Year here in Barotac, I’ll be with my cousin! It’s been a long time since we celebrated it here.

Also, last night when I arrived, wait, it’s not yet night when I arrived, it’s afternoon. Whatever it is. Wait, let me think what to talk first.

Finally, Kat-kat arrived!!! Distractions, go away!! LOL

Wait, my poor ‘brother’ asked me if we get bored when we’re texting him. I told him no, as a matter of fact I’m fond talking to him. Because I always talk about something that he doesn’t know so he keeps on questioning me. He even asked what books I’m reading because he wants to read it too. It’s been a year but he never saw me, not even once. But he wants to, he told me. So near yet so far away. I remember that line, it’s from . . . secret. J But I already heard his voice, last February this year.

Last night, when we’re watching movie, I liked it but it’s abnormal. Very abnormal.

I think I’m in the mood of talking already. God, she likes it. She told me, because I showed her the picture of our favorite. And I let her watch episodes 16 to 24. And she told me again that it’s very . . . um . . . nice? I think so. And also in exchange she gave me some of her photos in her pod. Put I in the beginning of pod. What we did the whole day was to watch movies. Jara and me are watching something in my laptop, and my cousin, Akina and Kat-kat are watching something in Jara’s portable DVD Player. That was the first time I offer her a condition. I told her: “Just give me that tape and I’ll let you have one of my tapes. Just name it and I’ll give it to you.” I need that one, because I’m planning to complete all of its episodes. But she didn’t give me her answer, YET. Why, I’m sure that she’s thinking of it right now. Haha. She can have anything that she wants, as long as I have it. Oh please, I want that one. Just that one. Pretty please, give it to me. T_T

Oh, and I showed her that picture. She’s crazy! Hysteric. Haha. She kept on smiling and so on and so forth. She kept on covering her face and burst out laughing. Well, we’re the same when we feel so much happiness. I told her to watch episode 5 because it’s a must! But she’s only in episode 2. I told her, I really told her. And I think she’s jealous, but not that kind of jealousy. A friendly one. But I let her watch plenty of episodes of that stupid one. I felt that the laptop would explode. Almost 8 hours of usage, nonstop. And the bottom is very hot as well as the square in the charger. But it’s ok. It’s been a while since we’re like that. I miss those times. Oh, and mother told aunt that she’s planning to sleep here next year. What?! Did I hear the right words?! NO!! It’ll be our last year being high schools and you want to keep us in this sanctuary? Definitely NO! T_T. What are they doing? And, what are they thinking? It’s creepy actually.

‘Brother’ didn’t come. Pfft. When will I see him? I don’t know.

My poor innocent eyes! Naru! Help me! Oh my God, she told me that only one person dares to open that thing! So she keeps on choosing the normal ones. Haha. I can’t believe her. Really, I can’t explain my fascination with her but she knows that I’m fond of her. Of course we know that we’re fond of each other. But the one that she showed me was really something. And it’s on-going. His little brother is cute. I forgot to ask her how old is he but I think, he’s just 7. And the little brother told his ‘big brother’ that his eyes are beautiful, and he’s absolutely shocked. Well, they are not really related by blood but there’s something between them. Jara told me that the first accomplishment of the big brother was that he was able to put some shoes in little brother’s feet. How cute. (I think Naru knows what I’m thinking.) I want to put everything here but I’m shy. But I’m willing to tell Naru about it and then she’ll ask me questions like ‘Is it nice?’ ‘How many episodes?’ ‘Is it still on-going?’ But I’m sure that she’ll ask me in Illongo, I’m only trying to put it in English here. They’re really cute. I’m imagining it, right now. Of course it’s cute that big brother always takes care of you, cooks you breakfast, lunch and dinner (big brother scolds little brother if little one doesn’t eat rice because according to big bro, rice is the most important), and then wipe the mud out of you, lulls you to sleep ( I think that big brother wasn’t able to lull him to sleep, there was even a time that little one slept with the wolves that keeps him company always whenever big bro’s not around), and gives you piggy-back ride. J (My own brother is not like that and I don’t want him to be like that. LOL)

And also, big bro told little one that he’s cute and he wants him to be his true brother. Wait, did he really do that? I forgot, need to ask her.

This is already enough. It’s already late. Domo! J

I wrote this last 30 December 2010, but I posted it today, January 4, and also, Happy Anniversary nay and tay!! J

Second entry

Konnichiwa!! This is my second entry!! I’m doing it now because I need to finish this and the third one before I go away from this house. Go away?! Ha! Maybe I need to some air? Haha. Yes, indeed all I need to do when I’m in my aunt Ruby’s house is sit and read my book.

 And speaking of book, I bought another one and made a reservation in Booksale. Why I’m reading about Law! Yes, I also love the name, that’s why I’m reading it. Oh God, then I went to National Bookstore, I made a big mistake!!! If I hadn’t bought a book in Booksale, what I have now is that book!!! And also, there is this old man, he’s looking for a book also of Anne Rice, then I went beside him looking too, then he asked me if I read books. Then I said yes, and then he gave me advices on what books to read. And he also said that it’s good that I’m fond of reading because nowadays, children are fond of playing internet games (mind you, I’m playing too . . . haha)  and because of that, they doesn’t know the beauty of stories I think, sorta . . . I get what he’s trying to say but I just can’t explain it too well. Now back to that one, oh I’m proud of the judge, I forgot the name, but he told them (I won’t write their name . . . maybe if my tongue slip I’ll write it later without knowing it. Just go with the flow) that the case is not about them, because they keep on quarreling. Then the judge called them and told them something, it’s about two lawyers like them too, they always fight but in the end, they can’t . . . you know . . . um . . . they live together to make it short. See?! That’s what I’m telling myself, I’m sure they’ll be together too. That’s why I made a reservation in Booksale. LOL. Oh right, I’m caught up in my own world. (smiles)

God, if only I can write here what Vickie told him. Just by remembering it, I burst out laughing! Sound so . . .so . . . I don’t know. Oh, I know! I’m shy to write what did Solomon thought. Also that cockatoo, Solomon’s witness is a bird! Hell! Victoria thought. And when the case ended, the bird hopped on her shoulders and poop. Now, she’s very mad. I don’t want to talk about it now, especially here.

So, another topic. Oh yes, I’ve read it! For the third time! Right, maybe if he’s starting hearing something, he describes it as an irritating sound, that’s the time that he’ll use her scythe. Amazing!!! Terrific!! When I saw him, I’m grinning. I’m so lucky; father is not beside me, because I’m in his office that time. Wait, I read it last Thursday, the 23^rd. Also, that’s the first time that I saw him really angry. Did Vincent notice his eyes? I guess so because he was shocked! And then, he slaughtered Humpty Dumpty. Great! I always want him to use her scythe. He’s cool but she’s cooler. (oh wait, I saw a book with a title of Pandora something, I want it!!!) And then the last page of that chapter was, she opened her eyes. I can’t wait to watch the second season; I’m hoping that they’re planning to make it. If not, I need a petition to give them. Haha)

Should I talk about Kuro? I don’t know. Maybe I should ask Naru, how can I ask her? She’s far away. Out of my reach.  I told her I like him and then she told me that she likes him too??!! What?! Naru, are you kidding me?! Our thoughts are always different. Sometimes, what she likes is what I dislike and what I like is the one that she doesn’t like. But we also agree on some other things. But when I don’t like it, I ALWAYS tell her that I HIGHLY DISAGREE. But her, I don’t know. She’s not telling me those words but she just doesn’t like it. That’s all. She’s weird. Correct. I know that side of her. She’s even telling me that she’s weird. Ha! Fine!

I can’t wait until I finish this. I’m gonna reid. Reid?! Sleazy . . . ha! I’m thinking about it. I like the following words but I’m not sure if you’ll like ‘em to. LOL.  I’m gonna read. But how can I finish this if my head is out of thoughts?! I need help. Naru!!! I need help. It’s already 11:10 in the evening. I’m not finished yet. Why, we arrived home almost 10. From church going to SM City. Hell, my brother’s not here. He’s out there. With that . . .that . . .whatever it is. Tomorrow, I’m sure he’ll be home! Ha! The worse thing we siblings do this year I think is that I helped him finish his drinks. Ha! When you saw him, he’s miserable. Four bottles and still not enough?! I got only one. Do you know what I’m talking about? It’s not about it. And the most unforgettable moment we siblings have is that, same month, same day, different year, DENGUE! I’m having this feeling that on 2011, my sister is next. Haha. Also same month and date? I hope not.

What else? Hmm . . . my words are very near to a thousand. Yes! A little bit more of talking and I’m done. But what else do I need to talk about this day? There’s nothing special that happened today. All I did in the morning is watch tv since I’m the only one left at home. They all went to her birthday in Pototan. It’s very difficult when I’m in this kind of situation. Grrr! Since I’m listening to music, would you mind if you join me? Although it’s not English. Of course, Naru knows what language it is. Haha. Maybe, this is already enough. I want to sleep. So this is all for now. Good night, pleasant dreams! :D

First entry

I’m relieved!!  Finally!! I don’t know what’s troubling me, but I can feel that I’m at ease. Very . . . Indeed, fascinating.

Well, as I know, this is my first entry, so let me start it with a greeting. Merry Christmas! Although it’s kinda late, but it’s still 25. Why, I feel alive in this very moment. Many thoughts are rolling in my head that I don’t even know what to write. Ah, I know. As always, I can feel Christmas when I’m with my cousin and our other two friends. The moments we always share, we even went to malls when our birthdays come, we talk about strange things that sometimes no one understands us. Oh, I assure me, it’s fun, really. But what I really like most is that we sleep very, very late at night that its morning already. I shouldn’t talk about that four us; I should talk about what happened today. Ha! This is not my notebook anymore where I can write anything that enters my mind. (laughs)

But this is my first Christmas that we didn’t spend most of our time together since we reached high school. It’s sad, but I’m expecting it since uncle’s here.

We went to our grandmother’s house as always. Our families always gather there not only during Christmas but also during important occasions. Why, I couldn’t really understand why I spend so much time in reading my books this time. It’s just that I wanted to be alone and let my mind wonder. Haha. But honestly, I really wanted to see her.  And she’ll always tell her secrets especially her . . . oh, it’s a secret. Now, I forgot his name. Sshhh! Sometimes I prefer her to be my sister instead. Of course, because we share the same interests. Particularly . . . it’s just between the two of us. Oh, but when afternoon came, we went to their house. (Sighs) As always, she’s waiting. Why when she saw me, “Gie!!”  And she’ll give me her warm smile. Of course, I’ll hug her in return. Oh God, I really want her to be my sister. And then, we sat in the balcony. And we started talking. The very first thing she told me was about Ulquiorra. And then I burst out laughing, and she laughed too. Of course, she knows why I laughed, she always knows. And then about her! Oh my, I knew it, she likes them too!!! Ok, back to him. She asked me if I saw him die. Of course, I did. And I can’t get it out of my head, as a matter of fact. My very first question when he died is that, “Why did he die?!” Oh when I saw him reached out to her. It’s very . . . um . . . touching. Did he really gain a heart after all??? That’s the biggest question that nobody seems to know the answer, but I think, he really did gain . . . a little.

Ha! The conversation about them was cut off in an instant because we both know that we’ll continue it some time. Next week, perhaps. I’ll sleep in there! Haha. But two days before that is that I’ll be with my aunt first. I really do love her little house. It’s so quiet in there, unlike our house, very noisy that I hate it.

Back to us. We planned what we will do when her birthday comes. But again, I think that this is her first birthday since we reached high school that the four of us won’t go the mall. I really wonder why uncle is not letting her. Perhaps, he just wanted to spend time with his daughter. I know that, all fathers do. But it’s our yearly routine! Yearly? I like it. But it’s true. I remember last year, my cousin spent her time with us, in our house. I’m in there house, 26 or 27 I think. Then father fetch me and I ask her mom if she can go with me. Ha! She let her. And then every night, we watched movies, sleep late. Then, I brought her everywhere I go. We talked about every topic we knew. I’d really be thankful if that moment can be repeated. Mother is even arguing about our noise. And we open the windows and lean against it and read books. The air, cold. We always find our own worlds amusing. Because in there . . . I don’t know what word to use. Not perfect but rather, just okay for the two of us. Ha, am I caught up in the past? I should rather focus about the present. (smiles)

Uncle is planning to give her a birthday blast in their house! She doesn’t want it. She told me. Haha. Of course she doesn’t want it; we’re used of celebrating it outside. OUTSIDE. But it’s her father alright, but we . . . I accept that we can’t do it this year.  Please God, let us do it next year. Maybe, it’ll be our last time to be together, don’t you think too? Also, she wants to stay in our house. Haha. Of course, I want her to be here too. Right here, beside me. Because when she’s beside me, sure, I’m not alone. Ah! This whole thing is not what we planned!!! I can’t believe that uncle’s stay will be this long! I can’t help it, I’m frustrated, again. Oh no, I shouldn’t be frustrated, I should be happy, because it’s been years that uncle wasn’t able to be with her daughter during her day. Alright, we admit defeat. We sure can’t complain. Ha!

We are so caught up in our own conversation that mother told me it’s already time to go home. Home? We’re not heading there first but I need to say goodbye to her already and then we left. We went to Pototan first. Oh, I’ll tell you, the lights, magnificent. What I like most is the big Christmas tree. Oh, I like everything since brother is with me. Haha. We took a stroll around the plaza twice. We passed the fountain too. PURRFECT. And then we arrived home, already past 8.